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Body..... Shutting..... Down......

Weirdest experience of my life.


Sitting here being productively done with all my work and just seeing if I can pull off a 2nd attempt at an all-nighter and I guess after 3 previous nights of only getting 1-3 hours of sleep, My body is finally rebelling.


Literally just happened: Sitting here, listening to music, TYPING full speed and coherently, and then my head slowly does that fowards-fall thing while my eyes simultaneously roll back in my head...then I popped up as if nothing happened and feeling dizzy/that feeling you get right before you get nauseous or if you leg falls asleep and you try to wake it back up, but it's not fully awake so it's like this tingle-y (yes, college edu is working just fine) feeling thing..but it happened in my head.  I've heard stories and never believed them....

until now.

No Idea Where This Came From....

After Reading some Magazines,

I 

Got Inspired,

and decided that a new and cleaner way for people to travel...

is the brand spankin' new and innovative

(put on your best car salesmen voice and read the rest aloud)

"Cloud Transportation"...

(YES, those clouds move.....squint really hard and
remember what the weather was like on Wednesday, April 27th)

For those of you who are unfamiliar with such technology,

Cloud Cars are the Ultimate Slowing Machine!

They not only are made of condensed water vapor
(thank you 5th grade science)...

but also are the ONLY car that Hydrates itself and its passengers simultaneously! 

Standard models come equipped with soft, luxurious cushion seats,

and a Really Nice View.. definitely one for the books!

(it's New to EVERY Human Being)!!

Be the first to jump on this bandwagon, or don't..

and just lounge back in the deluxe model, 

in our nice Charcoal Gray,

equipped fully with Electric Shock and Rolling Thunder Massages,

ThunderBolt 2000!

(Yes, that sounds like a Harry Potter Broom...

It Was Meant To)

Not quite caught on to the Cloud Series yet?

No worries,  our OldSchool Tree Models are a nice alternative.

The only mode of transportation that Gets you all the way From Point A...

To the Exact Same spot in 0-3 seconds flat

(Some models take 0-30s or even 0-2:00min

due to the mental processing capability of the driver)

They come in the standard Bark for the exterior color and solid Wood for interior.

As an Extended BONUS to the Standard Models, 

some come fully equipped with a "Pimp MY Tree" Feature

and change colors (according to the season that it's in), 

Along with rain, sun, sweat, snow, chills, and a free cold or flu of the season!! 

It's like Eastmakuhth Day all year long!

(For those 2:00 processors,

that would be

Easter, Christmas, Hanukkah and Birthday

all rolled into one)...

top that Seth Cohen.

Equals

The only consistant thing across the globe...
uniting every single individual...
creating an absolute feeling of equality...
keeping earth on a stable and consistant pattern...

TIME.

Makes you think...how much time do we actually have left?  What makes one person more successful than another? -Time Management.  But not the literal definition of management...Know how to enjoy life because you never know when one day, it just won't be there, and how will you want people talking about you at your funeral?? Me personally, am Banning black to mine...everyone has to wear any interpretation of bright vibrant colors and no one is allowed to ramble on about how I was such a nice person, good heart, la-di-da-ti-daaaaaahhh! BLAH! Everyone who gets up to speak has to tell at least one joke and remind people of how I always did everything in my power to make them smile b/c sitting in a room with no one smiling is like being the darkest place in the entire universe and not being able to see your hand in front of your face... IT SUCKS ...and you run into things like you have some mental disorder and completely forget how to walk properly (well in my case, my sanity is still being studied! HA!)

well, as one of my (non)role-models and talented singer/drinker would say...it's 5 o'clock somewhere.
Meaning: It's My Nap Time! 

Seriously... it's 2:49 am.

Just thinking...

(Insert Self Here...I did)

Just sitting here over this lovely Easter weekend in New Mexico and pondering out by my Nana's pool... Can someone really love and be loved in return?  If you are loved in return, how do you trust? Trust is built on prior experiences, but what if these experiences have been limited and sporadic in nature? Does this mean that this trust reflects the nature of the relationship? Can two people survive sporadic and limited interaction? Or does every person need that constant attention to make relationships work?

Chain of Events

If one can read, one can think...

this is one of my favorite pictures I've taken...
It reminds me that there is so much
more in this world besides me.

If one can think, one can dream...
If one can dream, one can do...
If one can do, one can make...
If one can make, one can build...
If one can build, one can sustain...
If one can sustain, one can nurture...
If one can nurture, one can love...
If one can love, one can die...
If one can die, one can see the light...
If one can see the light, then one has reached
the beginning of the end where eternity waits for them.

Invincible

How one small ant can life a branch, that would be the equivalent of a person lifting a redwood tree, and yet people can't seem to get off their couches and go exercise or make a difference in the world?

If one were to look at every task like an exercise to build your stamina, by the end of the week, you'd be able to lift a small forest.  

Brush your teeth (getting the roots), get dressed (truck of the tree), making breakfast (keep going), driving or getting yourself from point A to B (almost there) and getting through your day (the branches up to the top of the tree).  Each day is a tree and if you can lift yourself through one, think of the possibilites one can achieve just one month from today. 

Thunderstorms

Most productivity comes when you are staring at the wall listening to thunderstorms roll in and out of the city. Whether it be from the lack of things to do outside or the fact that my mood shifts once there's a prospective rain storm.  The dark and eery looking clouds linger overhead for a sold 12 hours before you finally give into the somber state of mind.  What could one get accomplished in those 12 hours?  Twelve hours is some people's work-day and here we are, small little ants on the life food chain stressing about day-to-day activities that in the greater sense of life, do not even matter.  It's like being stuck on a ferris wheel, going 'round and 'round until you realize you've seen the same thing over and over again and you force yourself to get off.  Pull yourself out of the haze that's fogging your judgement and look into the future.  Stop living each day like it's your last, plan for something.  The future represents hope, and in some cases, that's all you have to hold onto.  Procrastination kills small puppies. (not really, but it's a metaphor) Keep that in mind the next time you don't feel like doing anything! Think of the most innocent and fragile creature and just imagine wiping its existence off the face of the earth.  It's the same feeling your brain gets when you overwork it from studying last minute or putting off 4 projects until the night before they are due.  It hurts, much deeper than you realize...until you pull yourself off that ferris wheel.  Sometimes, it helps to jump off of the top, not waiting for it to make a full circle..as long as you have your parachute..you're golden kid.

Solid Food

I miss eating solid food!! You never realize what your favorite foods are until you cannot eat any of them.  I am recovering from mono that was disguised as strep and after taking an antibiotic that was suppose to rid me of this dreaded illness, I have had an allergic reaction.  My gums are swollen, my teeth hurt, my throat still makes me sound like I'm croaking and I cannot chew solid food!!! I'm stuck on a liquid, bland diet that consists of chocolate frozen yogurt and chicken noodle soup!

I never thought I'd say this, but I'm learning to hate frozen yogurt!

I wish I had a large pizza, covered with mushrooms, canadian bacon, green peppers, black olives, and pepperoni.  After that large pizza, I would then eat my newly established love affair of Nutella pizza with a side of Double Stuffed Oreos with the yellow creme for spring. After j'ai les dents du fond qui baignent (for those of you who can't understand french, it means "I'm Overstuffed"), I will continue eating just for the mere reason that I can.  Next on the menu: homemade tamales from my Nana's house with fresh chili sauce and sour cream, a side of green chili chicken enchiladas, and the biggest bowl of my mom's homemade green chili sausage queso aside a big bad of tortilla chips.  Then after this wonderful meal, I would go to my favorite restaurant and eat the best triple chocolate cake known to mankind.

Then I would come home and make my Cinnamon Chocolate Chip Coconut Cookies.
I got the idea from my ex's sister but after she was unwilling to share her delectable recipe, I came up with one of my own.



Put:

• 2 sticks of butter
• 1 cup of brown sugar
• 6 1/2 tbsp of sugar

Into a bowl and beat until fluffy.

Add:

• 2 eggs

Then Beat until mixed.

Add

• 1 1/2 tsp of vanilla extract
• 1/2 tsp of salt
• 1/2 tsp of baking soda
• 4 1/2 tsp of cinnamon
• 1 cup of flour

Then Beat until mixed thoroughly.

Finally, Add:

• 2 3/4 cup of old-fashioned whole oats
• 2 3/4 cup of shredded sweetened coconut
• 1 1/2 cup of milk or semi-sweet (personal preference) chocolate chips 

Hand mix until batter is fully stirred together. Use a small teaspoon sized table spoon to shape cookies and drop onto a non-stick cookie sheet.

Bake at 350 degrees for 15-18 minutes, or until browned. To store the cookies: use parchment paper to separate rows and put in tightly sealed Tupperware containers.

LOOK, it's a NOOK for my BOOKs!

It's the first ever birthday present that I didn't ask for and I absolutely LOVE!

Why didn't I think of this before?

You have all of your books on this handy dandy device that connects you to the B&N online store for when you have FINISHED the books you've recently purchased.  Full color screen makes it better than an iPad...Yes, I said it! I can't wait for all the places I can take this wonderful invention to make me smarter...the park, the zoo, the library for when I'm not focusing on my school work and my laptop dies, the plane, the train, a boat, the beach, a picnic, when I go babysit, when I go to PARIS! Oh this device is totally worth the money. I suggest everyone go get one.  And it's better than an iPad because it's smaller and holds battery life longer.  We compared with my mom's iPad and I win! (As usual) and Then, BONUS: You can get on facebook and twitter!

From one of my favorite poems: "Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won."


All I can do with my handy dandy Nook Book!

Delusional

I've always wondered what the Gorillaz actually looked like..not their cartoon counterparts.

It's funny, on my birthday, laying here in bed with a 103 fever and unable to eat anything, my delusional thinking goes to "hey, what random fact can I discover today that I did not know before??"

It's like a whole new perspective on this band exists. I do not despise listening to them anymore.  It makes them a creditable source of music for when I am bored now.  Also, this song is a big step from their old music of randomness that just annoys the snap out of someone.

Poetry...

I wish I were a flower
Growing wild and free;
I wish I had the power
To be whatever I want to be;
To feel like in this hour
That I'm not hyped on green tea;
This book leaving me sour
Oh, you bastard psychology;
I smell... Indeed I need to shower
But not before I actually study;

Oh how productive I can be
When my mind is not on psychology;
I dream, I think, I am
I could even cook a rack of lamb;
I could even bake
My favorite cake;
Of Chocolate Chip
Inside A Bacon Strip?
Oh Strep Throat
How You Love to Gloat;
I Get You Twice A Year
Oh How You Make Me Sneer;

Hiding Place

Where's the place you go to hide?

Gym... 

    Mall... 

      Nook...

        Cranny...
          In a Box...
            Under a tree...
               In a bush...
                 Behind a door...
                    In the library stacks...

                       Maybe in a Closet...

                     Or Perhaps The Place No One Expects, Where You Blend In To Your Environment So Perfectly, It's Like You're Lost Within Your Own World... 

 The Place You Go when You're:

Hurt,

Confused,

Tired, or just

Happy because it's the one place you know you are Safe.

Point of View

Jail Cell Window outlooking into a cloudy haze of a day.

Perhaps a ladder, flat on a stone sidewalk.

Maybe the simplest, shortest game of hopscotch ever played.

An ambulance stretcher with stains and scars of the day.

Or maybe just a doodle one does when you feel like you've got nothing left except for the pencil in your hand ..

Exercise

-ing my right to do whatever I please.

-ing in a the gym is really mundane but for some reason, I just refused to leave today.  I literally ran 3 mi and walked 10 because I had so much on my mind.

-ing the right as a best friend to call you out on your bullshit and telling you yes....you really did hurt my feelings...how are we going to fix this?

-ing the right to turn off my phone and live a day without technology tomorrow (I might die..We'll see Wednesday)

-ing the right as a single girl to go on dates and meet new people just because I can

-ing my artistic side by starting my journal again and drawing at the wee hours of the morning when a huge thunderstorm sounds like it's about to unleash the wrath of God on my poor little townhouse.

-ing the fact that I do not have any exams this week and I'm being productive by starting/finishing projects that are due in the next few days/week

-ing the fact that even though it's by birthday this weekend, I am not going to have/go to a party.  I am visiting my family in New Mexico because tradition is so much better than a random college experience

-ing my brain right now and found a new way to look a word and all of the meanings it can have. Idea of the day: what if more people exercised their brain? The world could actually be a better place if people weren't so darn selfish and thought about the people they're affecting.

Kids Today....

Is it Just me Or are teenagers today becoming increasingly disconnected from the rest of the world? When I was little I thought Teddy and Abe were the coolest guys in history, and today, people don't even have real first names and spell everything without syllables, proper grammer, and they use numbers and add "z"'s to every word. How do they expect future generations to learn anything if today we are stunting knowledge and learning from pure laziness?

My Hope In Humanity lies within the little kid I babysit.  This 7yr old is on the chess team and is reading the Harry Potter series in the 1st grade!!!

P.s. Does anyone find it ironic that despite this absolutely inspiring statement about the progression of culture (or lack thereof), that it still says "Historically Hardcore" at the bottom of the picture.  Really People?  I'm not going to use my typical response of "Grow Up" because over the past few days I learned that I really do not want to (another story for another time).  Instead my new phrase will be "You're wasting a Perfectly Good Brain".

Oh Isn't that So True?! People don't actually need to "grow up" or be "more mature", you just need to locate your brain, and actually "Use It" because if you think about it, your "mind" isn't an actual object someone can locate. Instead, it's this metaphorical battery that fuels your physical body to react to it's current reality.

Studying?

Ha. More Like: "Forcing-Students-To-Read-Pointless-Facts-About-One-Subject-In-Order-To-Call-Yourself-A-Genius-Of-A-Professor-And-Watch-All-Of-Your-Students-Never-Use-Anything-You-Haven't-Taught-Them"

Forcing your students to memorize facts out of a book while you lecture the exact same material in class is not teaching....it's called "knowing how to read, make a powerpoint presentation, and knowing how to make a full room of college level human beings fall asleep a measly five minutes after you begin.

Harsh? Life's Tough, Get A Helmet. 

Thank You Meadows for Not Doing that To Me!!!!

I Think the college system should take another look at the way things are handled in a classroom and then Completely Execute (metaphorically, of course) the person who ever came up with this idea.  Students don't learn from reading something then hearing the same thing reworded on a powerpoint...Students learn by:

DOING things, FAILING often, SUCCEEDING rarely, EXPLORING everywhere, EXAMINING everything, and PERCEIVING The World Around Them. 

Functionality Meets Like-ability

Could every house be made to fit the needs of the people looking for one without having to sell your children and all worldly-possessions?

I've been noticing a pattern of things I naturally come across on the internet.  My mom is moving (since I live at home) it affects me...Do I move out next year (junior year of college) or do I continue living rent free in a new (to our family at least) house? And looking up all these possible houses, I tend to think, "why couldn't people design the home according the the way they want?" I mean if you want a book nook, make one! Ideas I would have in my house: Tire swing hanging from your ceiling (childhood dream of mine), a slide in the middle of your house (for your lazy moments of not wanting to walk down the stairs), a dog bedroom (mine hog the bed all the time and I really wish they had their own space, a room with no windows and really comfy chair-couches (for movies and if you just want to live like a bat for a day), sunroom as the top floor of your house with a patio (california necessity--plan on moving back to my native land after graduation), a pool with a really cool water fountain (never had one), a computer tv (i need at least a 42" to navigate my computer...this 13"er is not acting in my favor, especially when I want to watch my tv shows and movies or even music videos)  ...I can't remember some of my others, but I'll randomly post them if I can think about them later on!

Never Ending Spring Break

Is there Such a thing?

Can you treat each day like spring break? Not having a care in the world and living each day at a time. Not focusing on what you're going to do this weekend. Not stressing about waking up for your 9am class.  Taking in life as it comes.  Actually appreciate the reading you're doing (class or not) and learn something from it.  Take notes, not on school but on life.  Study the people around you.  Find new ways to improve yourself as a thinker.  Do. Dissolve "can't" and "fail" from your vocabulary.  See the good in others and the world.  Tell someone you love them (Especially your Momma).  Take a road-trip.  Sing your favorite song at the top of your lungs.  Learn a new hobby.  Give up a bad habit (mine: procrastination).  Tell your friends how much you appreciate having them.  Find peace of mind that you will "succeed" at whatever you put your mind to. Make a new friend.  Give someone a present.  Donate old clothes.


One Adventure from my Spring Break:

Poor (Wo)Man's Therapy

Blogging: [blawg] verb. A Poor Man's Therapy. 

Literally and sincerely can vouch for this one. I spend $40 after insurance to sit a talk to someone who's officially started using parallels to explain my life. Sorry doc, ain't happenin'! 

Yes there are similarities in my life but have you ever wondered if it's not the people who influence your life, it's your influence over the relationships that draw the parallels. You create each relationship along the same basis because the underlying need/want in life is to never be alone. Man was not created/evolved/invented [which ever your preference] to sit in a room alone with all attention on some machine that cannot feel emotion (x2 jabs). Emotions create relationships which sustain life. Life is meant to be lived, expressed, felt, and heard. the ups, downs, joy, anger, depression, fear, confidence, glory, praise, happiness, tears all define how your life is lived..and each one is a result of your own mind. So yeah, you can draw parallels all day, but at the end of the day, all you've got is a paper full of lines and a mess full of a head. If you were to spend $40 a week for an entire year, you'd be able to buy not only my dream Valentino bow peep-toe pumps, but also a pair of shiny diamond encrusted Christian Loubuiton pumps. Brings a whole new meaning to Shoe Therapy! 

iPod Houdini

Here's your next task, should you choose to accept: ( which you should because it's really fun)

1. Get a few friends (not something you can do by yourself...like brainstorming: best ideas come from groups of 3-7 people)

2. Hop in your car

3. Don't map out a game plan

4. Just start driving in the first direction you choose

5. Plug in your iPod (you must have a car adapter for this) 

6. Click "Songs"

*Before you press "Shuffle All", ask the almighty "iPod Houdini" a question!

Yes! If you haven't caught on, this is the updated version of the infamous cootie catcher! The next song that plays on the iPod hudini answers your life questions and holds the keys to your future. 

It's a great way to get a good laugh in, especially if you've had a no-so-joyous day, week, month, year, decade, millennium, life, etc.

It automatically allows you to act like a teeny-bopper again and forget the stressors of life. It takes you back to a much simpler time: a time where life's mysterious questions or problems could be solved by an 8x8 origami-folded, neon-highlighter-colored-crayola-markers-decorated piece of paper. 

Ex1) "what will my second class be like today?"

iPod Houdini: "it's the end of the world as we know it", R.E.M.

With one of my new friends along with my best friend in tow, the adventure ended up all the way in downtown of the adjacent city accompanied by laughing, "oOoOoOoOH"-ing, "Awwwwww"-ing, and many more mixed expressions in between.

Perspective actually was shed on some issues/topics that we would have never seen if it weren't for a little thing called fate and some technological device's idea of a comical joke. 

"I like Yokes!" 

Before I Die...

http://candychang.com/before-i-die-in-nola/

The link above explains it all, but basically this woman is "a public installation artist, designer, urban planner, and co-founder of Civic Center who likes to make cities more comfortable for people." (straight from her website)

Her work is absolutely inspiring.  It made me actually think about all the things I want to do before I die.  I realize that there is no alarm clock or flashing neon sign telling you how many days you have left in the world, but if you don't think about the future, how do you live in the present?

Every day, I'm thinking of one thing I want to do BEFORE I DIE, because I have come to realize I have sheltered myself from many opportunities I have had out of fear of failing.

That Ends Today.  

Then as life progresses, I will try to do any many things as I can in the time I am given.

1. Not Stress About My Exams Tomorrow.

When Plans Get Executed

After being on my computer all day because I'm at home taking care of my dog who's sick, my sister and I decided that for the latter half of spring break in a week that we are going to attempt to do this on a smaller scale with a slightly different approach to it.  Our idea includes the possibility of hanging it on the wall in a 1850 sq.ft. townhome or a ~24 sq.ft dorm room.  I have no idea how this is going to turn out, but between the two of us, it'll work out perfectly!

By perfectly, I mean completely Chaotic:
We'll probably yell at each other at least three times just buying the supplies we need. Then, we'll leave the stores fuming at each other--slamming doors and scowling.  After getting Sonic or some other form of fast food for lunch, we'll end up at home most likely covered in paint laughing hysterically because one of us will slip, trip, or flip something over at least once. The dogs will most likely attempt to eat one of the supplies...which will result in a chase of some sort and one of us yelling at the other for almost falling on top of the dog.  Then when it's all said and done, the pieces we did will probably not be finished, good enough, or even end up looking like we planned.

Just a typical project with my sister.  We get these grand ideas and she is the only person who has the guts to execute what others and I merely chatter about it with.  That is why I never want to live more than a phone call away from my family.  We're Crazy and I Love It.

Dear Blank, Please Blank

I know it has been around awhile now, but I just stumbled upon it again. here's my favorite one I've found so far:

      "Dear people who complain about our generation, 

                  Remember who raised us.

Sincerely, your kids"

Thank you for whoever posted this.  I really am tired of hearing:
1. how privileged and spoiled my generation is,
2. how we are disrespectful,
3. how we don't know our place in the working world,
4. how our SAT scores are dramatically lower than they were 30 years ago,
and 5. how we're too occupied with technology. 

Here is my response to those so quick to judge:

1. I didn't ask for all of this...Maybe our parents/grandparents just love us more.

2. you were equally disrespectful, our generation just isn't afraid to voice their opinion

3. it's called not wanting to do grunt work for some selfish prick who thinks he's entitled to do so

4. maybe because you added a third section  to it and put more emphasis on GPA instead of SAT for college (I got in with about average scores and I'm doing just fine)

5. yet you hire us expecting us to set up your facebook and twitter accounts, while sporting around an iphone or android?? We aren't too occupied with it, we just took the time to learn how to use it.

It's Just WRONG

1. 8AM Classes

• Why? I think of myself as a hazard on the road prior to 9AM. Much less in an actual classroom setting. I would ride my bike, but the tires are flat and I never wake up early enough to get there on time. Give me a million and one late-nights, but for the life of me..I am not a morning person.

2. Fast-food Bans

• How? AM I Suppose To Eat If Dallas Ever Did That!?!?                                                                               (THANK YOU FOR BEING CONSERVATIVE DALLAS)
• Last semester, I was sitting in class daydreaming/almost falling asleep and I vaguely heard the part about a news story talking about how the city of San Francisco is putting a ban toys in Happy Meals! What part of the "happy meal" is "happy"without a toy? I used to frequent McDonald's a few times (at least once a week) when I was a "young'n" just in hopes of getting that Beenie Baby toy or a Barbie princess. I ate there all the time and am not an obese person, nor a fat one. I am happily a size 4 and I still eat there on occasion! Putting a ban on toys should be against the law!! Not really, but this is ridiculous! The city should put a ban on bad-parenting...how can you love your kids if you let them get fat? It doesn't make sense!!

I say: let the advertising roam free, the toys reign out, and the government needs to go back to overspending and doing nothing about it! 

We should know our rights people! 

I'm going to take a trip there and ask for A TOY AND FRIES (no apple slices for me peeps) just for the heck of it and who is going to stop me? No one! :) 

• Because Why? I have A Brain and I Actually Use It. 

Smart?Phones!

Aren't Smart Phones suppose to help you "stay connected" to people? Way to go phone company who must-not-be-named! Or do we blame the people for not "staying connected" via smartphones? Assuming everyone has smartphones? Or is it wrong of me to assume every person my age would have one? So many questions for this un-named company who I am currently cursing right now for not following through on their promise and are creating just the opposite: a mass disconnection. I applaud anyone who has an iphone and actually uses it to call someone, instead of using texts/facebook/twitter to communicate!

Gotta Love that Innovative Technology.

TOE-Mae-TOE, TA-MAH-TOE

RA-TARD, RE-TARD. DAY-TA, DAT-TA. Does it actually matter??

I love how pop culture seeps into people's minds and actually causes phenomenons and fads that last a very long time. Tell me You can Truly not Name This Movie:

"May The Force Be With You"


Where do we draw the line in the sand between societal culture influencing us or shaping us? Or did we create this culture and it's a never ending circle where pop culture now defines a generation and just as we're creating it, it's shaping us in return?

Psycholo-DON'T

GOOD-BYE, ADIOS, AU REVOIR, À BIENTÔT, WIEDERSEHEN, CIAO!

TO PSYCHOLOGY MINOR! 

I officially am resigning my attempt to study psychology in college.  It is a lot of "effing" work for very little reward.  Don't get me wrong, I love learning about it and I am facinated by the human mind, but It is JUST NOT FUN ANYMORE! 

I'm Switching to "Film and Media" just because it sounds fun and I've always wanted to try it.  Isn't that what college is for? Figuring out what you love and want to do for the rest of your life? 

I've already changed my major 4 times and found my ultimate passion: advertising.  

I'm now changing my minor for the 4th time as well: business (BORING), anthropology (EH, OKAY), psychology (WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DEFINITIONS??), and now Film and Media (DING! DING! DING! WINNER!)

I really think it will help in the long run, especially if I want to work in creative advertising..I would hope you need to know how the camera works and the background of the film industry.  

Technology: How Our World Survives. 

BaAaAaAaAaAaH

(from one creative blog to land in another)

Literally, the Black Sheep.  Don't You feel like it sometimes? I know I have my days.

But even through all of life's BaAaAaAaD moments, there are just that many infinitely other WHITE Sheep moments that make it ALL Worth While.

HoboTrolls

WHAT IS THAT?! the URL: http://www.airninja.com/pictures/seattle/fremont-troll.jpg

I randomly "StumbledUpon" it and I just started laughing.  I mean who actually thinks of doing that??

It truly does look like a troll! The image it creates in my mind is this Dr. Seuss-Meets-Tim Burton-looking world where cars are swallowed up by giant happy under-the-bridge (RHCP reference) trolls.  Then little punk-skateboarder kids go flying off the shoulders down the arms and then end up at the top of the railing of the stairwell in the background of the picture just to end up going in giant loops over and over again.  All while drinking energy drinks and reminding me of creatures who look like the little demons in Nightmare Before Christmas mixed with Cindy Lou Who!

BieberFEVER! :)

I did it.  I actually saw the JUSTIN BIEBER EXPERIENCE! I know that's not the actual name of the movie but it should be. I was very hesitant to actually see this "movie" because I truly did not understand the whole phenomenon. I guessed it was my generation's obsession with the N*SYNC, Backstreet Boys, 98 Degrees, and Aaron Carter. Which, by the way, was ridiculously awesome! I miss me and my friends jumping up and down on our beds blasting the music through our tape players! This whole YouTube thing didn't even exist! We weren't even allowed on the internet without my mom sitting right there next to me. OoOoH How times have changed!!

Anyways, timeline of my Bieber Adventure:

first, indifference- didn't understand this obsession people had.

next, listened to one song and thought it was okay, just another pop song.

then, got a "OMG How CAN YOU NOT LIKE HIM?" lecture from my 22 yr old sister!!

[yes you  read that correctly: TWENTY-TWO yr old sister] 

after that, come to find out my best friend is obsessed so I agreed to go see it  b/c I love 3D movies.

Then, I started to warm up to his music, thought it was catchy!
if i was going to see a 2 hr movie about him, I wanted to know what I was getting myself into.

Finally,went to the movies:LEFT OBSESSED WITH THAT KID!! 

I'm not a creeper in the sense I think he's so "Dreamy" or "Hot"or "OMG MARRY ME!" 

I think he's a truly talented kid.  I mean he just turned 17 and he is already best friends with Usher, sold out MSG, plays numerous instruments, sings really well!, is a down-to-earth kid, loves his family, plays sports, is a typical teenage boy, and is humble enough to thank his fans and his friends for his success.  

You really can't hate the kid walking out of that movie.  I must admit, at some points the camera/3d-ness made me a little nauseous, but it was a good movie.  I would so see it again, and plan to. I also downloaded all of his songs because they're so fun to listen to and you feel like dancing in everyone! 

My lesson of the week:

Don't Judge A Professionally Groomed Teenage Boy By The Color Of His Sweatshirt. 

Random Q

Random Question from "Edit Profile" Section On My Blog...

You've just inherited a manufacturing plant that specializes in plastics.  

What are you going to make?

The only thing I could think of:

the world's biggest Starbucks cup!

How amazing would that be? Or even a "Never-Empty" Starbucks cup. It would automatically make you your drink of choice, then when it was time for a refill...BLAM..there it is! Then if you wanted to change your drink because you've already downed 25 double tall nonfat with whip mocha, THEN....

you'd be screwed. 

This is a "Never-Empty"Starbucks cup...not a MAGICAL one!!

 Come on now, you're smarter than that. 

Music

Music solves everything.

Every emotion I have or think about, I can find a song that describes it.  

The best way to listen to music:

1. in the car
2. windows rolled down
3. the sunroof open
4. Your best friend(s) sitting right next to you 
5. BELTING OUT THE LYRICS A THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS!!!! 

Double-Dog-DARE YOU to try it and see how amazing you feel after. 

Irony?

I find it highly ironic that one week I have everything solved...literally. I have my life set and I know how/what I'm going to do.

The Next Week...Nothing.

It's HILARIOUS! Not even kidding..And I wouldn't change it for anything in the world.

I actually prefer it this way: Knowing absolutely NOTHING about ANYTHING.

The Stress is GONE!

I took each day one day at a time and it's like a whole different side of the world was revealed. I started to notice more.  I actually took the time to look around campus as I was walking to class, instead of stressing about the time and if I was walking fast enough to get from point A (Antarctica) to point B (Media class).  The grass in front of Dallas Hall is REALLY green! I haven't noticed the transition from winter/ugly brown color to almost spring (Well technically it Is spring in Dallas calendar time).  I actually took the time to "smell the roses", well in this case "smell the lawn company cutting the grass and then sneeze every five seconds because I'm basically allergic to life in Dallas", and it was thoroughly pleasant and peaceful!

Time

Where has this week gone?? It's already Friday and I feel like I was just waking up Monday morning completely wired on caffeine to get me through class.

Upside: I am going to Paris this summer!!
Downside: Still 101 days until I am stepping off the plane in a foreign country.

I have actually never been out of the US before. I feel like such a mundane, close-minded person after realizing that. Here I am wanting to explore the world and jetset off to all of these different places, and yet I live at home, go to college, and do not travel outside of three states.

 In order to travel the world, one can:

a) win the lottery

b) have parents willing to allow you to go at a younger age and have the means to do so 

c) know someone who would be willing to take you

d) go abroad through school

I prefer D. Above all the others, I chose the last because with all of the other circumstances, you are relying on other outside influences to get you from Point A to B. Personally, I have always enjoyed the dream of one day going of on my own (preferably with a best friend or two) and just exploring. Come May 30, my time has come! Paris--the City of Lights (and Fashion)--has people flocking to it every year just to catch a glimpse of this enchanted fortress. Guarded from an insipid and mundane existence, Paris holds a history of cultivated achievement that is presented by an aura pulsating through the veins of every person to have ever encountered it.

How do I seem so insightful about this city that I have never been to before? I DREAM.
I allow my mind to explore different places through books, movies, songs, narratives, and through the eyes of people who are able to tell their stories of adventure and achievement. My idea came to me when I was talking to my sister, who is usually the one to help me realize things (good or bad) about my life.

It's time, we agreed.

• I have just gotten my life back from a minor speed bump nicknamed "first love".  
• I have just transitioned through the awkward phase of finding my major and figuring out the answer to the typical question, "where do you see yourself in 5 (10, 20, etc.) years?"

Living a good part of my life through the characters in different mediums, I have taken the reigns and begin my own chapter. I want to view and live the world in present day reality. I love my books and movies, but I was just listening to this song and it said "life's too short to care at all....restore life the way it should be". After hearing that, it really resonated with me. I realized that I used to just wander and let people walk all over me. I applied to the Paris program for the summer and yours truly got in!! I wasn't nervous at all surprisingly; my grades are above average on the college scale, nothing to brag about whatsoever, but I am going to "toot my own horn" by saying that I really am a cool person to talk to. I take a sincere interest in talking to people and learning everything I can about the world around me. I get this weird high off of it. I will never have a drug/substance dependency. Life is too invigorating to even consider it! Even on my darkest days, I still enjoy life. People suck sometimes..but Eh, I get over it.

My idea is a challenge to myself... to seize every opportunity I can to transform myself into the leading heroine of my own life story. There is so much I have to learn about the world, but before I can even begin to consider that, I have to embrace my greatness.  Yes I said it, I am Great. Everyone is! People are just too scared to admit it or too worried about societal pressures to believe it.


STOP Being So Politically Correct and Worrying About What People Think About What You Have To Say, and Enjoy Your Own Life. If you try to live up to social standards, they'll just chew you up and spit you own like you were some dying antelope being devoured by vultures in the hot Sahara sun. Beautiful image isn't it?!

Oh Valentine's Day

i made this on my computer

It's so funny how big this holiday has come to be! I have always been such a fan of valentine's day especially in elementary school because it was so simple! I mean you give cards to your entire class and then you always give like an extra piece of candy to the person you were crushing on. hahaha Oh the simplicity of being a "young'n"....(as I say that without even turning 20 yet!) When did life get so complicated? The guy who likes you calls you a slut and then gives you an ultimatum about wanting to be in a relationship? No Thank You! Or having people who you thought were friends completely screw you over on the most holy of fake holidays? Pass!  I have become really cynical these days.  It's quite sad...I used to be like Cupid's assistant on this day but can relationships/friendships really mess you up that badly? Or is my trust in people completely gone like I have feared? But the upside to the entire day is hearing from my mom! :) She gave me my favorite: godiva chocolates and the traditionally awesome card..mixed with the happy valentine's day text...she truly is the best mom in the entire world!  Can running 5 miles a day really solve anything except helping balance a sugar addiction? I've been toying with this new idea and right now, the jury is still out. So much confusion.

SNOW

Why can't the entire city build some force field around the ice and snow? I mean they can build a monstrous domed field to host the super bowl and no force field?! I'm just kidding, (but you would think with all the money filtering from this city that someone would have invented that by now)  I love the snow especially when classes are cancelled for four days causing a six day weekend with the hopes of yet another snow day this week! Yet, I actually enjoy going to class but this whole week has thrown off my motivation for school.  I mean we haven't even had our first exams yet...I feel like this might be a bad thing! Bring on the challenge of coming back to class from a second winter break!

28 HOURS

After a non-consecutive 28 hours..MY MIND MAP IS DONEEE!

Because of it, my eyes won't focus properly. It's actually quite annoying. I don't like when my body doesn't correspond with how I'm feeling, which is extremely excited and relieved that I have finished a project earlier than the night before it's due!

(on a depressing note)

My heart still hurts. Is it actually possible for a heart to break? And If that were to occur, would it be able to repair itself like a paper-cut or another skin laceration? I mean it is a muscular organ, part of the human body, and if we were not meant to survive a broken heart, would we be able to continue living our day to day lives normally? Or would our body slowly start shutting down and deteriorate from the inside out?  And if the breakage is from another human being, would our immune system kick in to high gear and fight them off like an infection? Can our brains literally ERASE  what we don't want to remember? Can we forget the people who WALK OUT of our lives? I have no idea but I am going to start working on it... Maybe then, with the brain healed and immune system resting, our hearts can mend.

LOST REMOTE

After the short lived scare of losing my phone this morning...I HAVE NOW LOST MY TV REMOTE!!

Yes I realized that I should not be as obsessed with technology as I am, but it's really obnoxious having to get up and down every time to change the channel or mess with the volume while I'm doing homework. Who ever invented the remote and HD tvs should get a Pulitzer prize.

I propose that someone creates a remote locator or better yet..Electronics Locator! You press a button on your computer and it sends a signal to that device that alerts the alarm on it to go off.  How SIMPLE life would be! And my room wouldn't be turned upside-down from looking for it... after I cleaned it for like 3 hours the other day.  Ugh, this is depressing.

Oh Well, the Celtics are beating the Lakers so far and that's all that really matters (hopefully the game will continue in this manner)!!

Wrong

Being the humble person I am, I admit I am wrong in many facets of my life.

I am Wrong:

1. In the sense that I will never get straight A's... I find them completely pointless and it's redundant to hear, over and over again, that you will never do anything if you don't get straight A's.  The smartest person I know did not even finish college and he's one of the most successful people I know.  Success is not defined by your GPA or history of schools you attended.  Success to me means taking what you know and using it to gain experience in life, whether it be a topic as vast as intelligence or something as little as a new friend.  I personally learn more from not getting straight A's because if that is my quest, I focus more on the actual letter grade than the understanding of the information behind the letter and over look certain details.  I like B's, they're "Better" and keep my feet/mind firmly on the ground.
   
2. To have ever doubted myself or taken things too personally. Personal experience on my part- it used to run my life. It was too much effort and anxiety on my part and almost ruined me. I've learned life isn't worth living if you take anything people say to you personally. You are your own mind and no one person knows you better than yourself, so the motto I live by is: judge me if you want, it really doesn't make a difference either way.
   
3. To have hidden my tattoo from people (I literally can hide it because it's on my ribcage), but at one point I was ashamed because of how someone reacted to it.  I'm taking great pride in the fact that I drew the original idea and the artist merely enhanced it/gave it life in the "tattoo realm". Along the same line, I was wrong to hide my capability to draw .. I never thought I could until I took a drawing class last semester and instead of hiding my drawings, I am now open to showing people and listening to constructive criticism (or praise).
   
4. To ever doubt my faith or beliefs or to have ever feared death.  Death is an element that makes life beautiful and unifies every person ... We are all human and it's going to happen to everyone eventually so embrace the life you live, appreciate everything you have, and never take anything or anyone for granted.  

The first picture is just a doodle I did yesterday when I didn't feel like reading my marketing chapter and the second picture above is of my tattoo. 

Orchids to me symbolize strength, beauty, and individuality (no one flower is the same).