Body..... Shutting..... Down......

Weirdest experience of my life.


Sitting here being productively done with all my work and just seeing if I can pull off a 2nd attempt at an all-nighter and I guess after 3 previous nights of only getting 1-3 hours of sleep, My body is finally rebelling.


Literally just happened: Sitting here, listening to music, TYPING full speed and coherently, and then my head slowly does that fowards-fall thing while my eyes simultaneously roll back in my head...then I popped up as if nothing happened and feeling dizzy/that feeling you get right before you get nauseous or if you leg falls asleep and you try to wake it back up, but it's not fully awake so it's like this tingle-y (yes, college edu is working just fine) feeling thing..but it happened in my head.  I've heard stories and never believed them....

until now.

No Idea Where This Came From....

After Reading some Magazines,

I 

Got Inspired,

and decided that a new and cleaner way for people to travel...

is the brand spankin' new and innovative

(put on your best car salesmen voice and read the rest aloud)

"Cloud Transportation"...

(YES, those clouds move.....squint really hard and
remember what the weather was like on Wednesday, April 27th)

For those of you who are unfamiliar with such technology,

Cloud Cars are the Ultimate Slowing Machine!

They not only are made of condensed water vapor
(thank you 5th grade science)...

but also are the ONLY car that Hydrates itself and its passengers simultaneously! 

Standard models come equipped with soft, luxurious cushion seats,

and a Really Nice View.. definitely one for the books!

(it's New to EVERY Human Being)!!

Be the first to jump on this bandwagon, or don't..

and just lounge back in the deluxe model, 

in our nice Charcoal Gray,

equipped fully with Electric Shock and Rolling Thunder Massages,

ThunderBolt 2000!

(Yes, that sounds like a Harry Potter Broom...

It Was Meant To)

Not quite caught on to the Cloud Series yet?

No worries,  our OldSchool Tree Models are a nice alternative.

The only mode of transportation that Gets you all the way From Point A...

To the Exact Same spot in 0-3 seconds flat

(Some models take 0-30s or even 0-2:00min

due to the mental processing capability of the driver)

They come in the standard Bark for the exterior color and solid Wood for interior.

As an Extended BONUS to the Standard Models, 

some come fully equipped with a "Pimp MY Tree" Feature

and change colors (according to the season that it's in), 

Along with rain, sun, sweat, snow, chills, and a free cold or flu of the season!! 

It's like Eastmakuhth Day all year long!

(For those 2:00 processors,

that would be

Easter, Christmas, Hanukkah and Birthday

all rolled into one)...

top that Seth Cohen.

Equals

The only consistant thing across the globe...
uniting every single individual...
creating an absolute feeling of equality...
keeping earth on a stable and consistant pattern...

TIME.

Makes you think...how much time do we actually have left?  What makes one person more successful than another? -Time Management.  But not the literal definition of management...Know how to enjoy life because you never know when one day, it just won't be there, and how will you want people talking about you at your funeral?? Me personally, am Banning black to mine...everyone has to wear any interpretation of bright vibrant colors and no one is allowed to ramble on about how I was such a nice person, good heart, la-di-da-ti-daaaaaahhh! BLAH! Everyone who gets up to speak has to tell at least one joke and remind people of how I always did everything in my power to make them smile b/c sitting in a room with no one smiling is like being the darkest place in the entire universe and not being able to see your hand in front of your face... IT SUCKS ...and you run into things like you have some mental disorder and completely forget how to walk properly (well in my case, my sanity is still being studied! HA!)

well, as one of my (non)role-models and talented singer/drinker would say...it's 5 o'clock somewhere.
Meaning: It's My Nap Time! 

Seriously... it's 2:49 am.

Just thinking...

(Insert Self Here...I did)

Just sitting here over this lovely Easter weekend in New Mexico and pondering out by my Nana's pool... Can someone really love and be loved in return?  If you are loved in return, how do you trust? Trust is built on prior experiences, but what if these experiences have been limited and sporadic in nature? Does this mean that this trust reflects the nature of the relationship? Can two people survive sporadic and limited interaction? Or does every person need that constant attention to make relationships work?

Chain of Events

If one can read, one can think...

this is one of my favorite pictures I've taken...
It reminds me that there is so much
more in this world besides me.

If one can think, one can dream...
If one can dream, one can do...
If one can do, one can make...
If one can make, one can build...
If one can build, one can sustain...
If one can sustain, one can nurture...
If one can nurture, one can love...
If one can love, one can die...
If one can die, one can see the light...
If one can see the light, then one has reached
the beginning of the end where eternity waits for them.

Invincible

How one small ant can life a branch, that would be the equivalent of a person lifting a redwood tree, and yet people can't seem to get off their couches and go exercise or make a difference in the world?

If one were to look at every task like an exercise to build your stamina, by the end of the week, you'd be able to lift a small forest.  

Brush your teeth (getting the roots), get dressed (truck of the tree), making breakfast (keep going), driving or getting yourself from point A to B (almost there) and getting through your day (the branches up to the top of the tree).  Each day is a tree and if you can lift yourself through one, think of the possibilites one can achieve just one month from today. 

Thunderstorms

Most productivity comes when you are staring at the wall listening to thunderstorms roll in and out of the city. Whether it be from the lack of things to do outside or the fact that my mood shifts once there's a prospective rain storm.  The dark and eery looking clouds linger overhead for a sold 12 hours before you finally give into the somber state of mind.  What could one get accomplished in those 12 hours?  Twelve hours is some people's work-day and here we are, small little ants on the life food chain stressing about day-to-day activities that in the greater sense of life, do not even matter.  It's like being stuck on a ferris wheel, going 'round and 'round until you realize you've seen the same thing over and over again and you force yourself to get off.  Pull yourself out of the haze that's fogging your judgement and look into the future.  Stop living each day like it's your last, plan for something.  The future represents hope, and in some cases, that's all you have to hold onto.  Procrastination kills small puppies. (not really, but it's a metaphor) Keep that in mind the next time you don't feel like doing anything! Think of the most innocent and fragile creature and just imagine wiping its existence off the face of the earth.  It's the same feeling your brain gets when you overwork it from studying last minute or putting off 4 projects until the night before they are due.  It hurts, much deeper than you realize...until you pull yourself off that ferris wheel.  Sometimes, it helps to jump off of the top, not waiting for it to make a full circle..as long as you have your parachute..you're golden kid.

Solid Food

I miss eating solid food!! You never realize what your favorite foods are until you cannot eat any of them.  I am recovering from mono that was disguised as strep and after taking an antibiotic that was suppose to rid me of this dreaded illness, I have had an allergic reaction.  My gums are swollen, my teeth hurt, my throat still makes me sound like I'm croaking and I cannot chew solid food!!! I'm stuck on a liquid, bland diet that consists of chocolate frozen yogurt and chicken noodle soup!

I never thought I'd say this, but I'm learning to hate frozen yogurt!

I wish I had a large pizza, covered with mushrooms, canadian bacon, green peppers, black olives, and pepperoni.  After that large pizza, I would then eat my newly established love affair of Nutella pizza with a side of Double Stuffed Oreos with the yellow creme for spring. After j'ai les dents du fond qui baignent (for those of you who can't understand french, it means "I'm Overstuffed"), I will continue eating just for the mere reason that I can.  Next on the menu: homemade tamales from my Nana's house with fresh chili sauce and sour cream, a side of green chili chicken enchiladas, and the biggest bowl of my mom's homemade green chili sausage queso aside a big bad of tortilla chips.  Then after this wonderful meal, I would go to my favorite restaurant and eat the best triple chocolate cake known to mankind.

Then I would come home and make my Cinnamon Chocolate Chip Coconut Cookies.
I got the idea from my ex's sister but after she was unwilling to share her delectable recipe, I came up with one of my own.



Put:

• 2 sticks of butter
• 1 cup of brown sugar
• 6 1/2 tbsp of sugar

Into a bowl and beat until fluffy.

Add:

• 2 eggs

Then Beat until mixed.

Add

• 1 1/2 tsp of vanilla extract
• 1/2 tsp of salt
• 1/2 tsp of baking soda
• 4 1/2 tsp of cinnamon
• 1 cup of flour

Then Beat until mixed thoroughly.

Finally, Add:

• 2 3/4 cup of old-fashioned whole oats
• 2 3/4 cup of shredded sweetened coconut
• 1 1/2 cup of milk or semi-sweet (personal preference) chocolate chips 

Hand mix until batter is fully stirred together. Use a small teaspoon sized table spoon to shape cookies and drop onto a non-stick cookie sheet.

Bake at 350 degrees for 15-18 minutes, or until browned. To store the cookies: use parchment paper to separate rows and put in tightly sealed Tupperware containers.

LOOK, it's a NOOK for my BOOKs!

It's the first ever birthday present that I didn't ask for and I absolutely LOVE!

Why didn't I think of this before?

You have all of your books on this handy dandy device that connects you to the B&N online store for when you have FINISHED the books you've recently purchased.  Full color screen makes it better than an iPad...Yes, I said it! I can't wait for all the places I can take this wonderful invention to make me smarter...the park, the zoo, the library for when I'm not focusing on my school work and my laptop dies, the plane, the train, a boat, the beach, a picnic, when I go babysit, when I go to PARIS! Oh this device is totally worth the money. I suggest everyone go get one.  And it's better than an iPad because it's smaller and holds battery life longer.  We compared with my mom's iPad and I win! (As usual) and Then, BONUS: You can get on facebook and twitter!

From one of my favorite poems: "Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won."


All I can do with my handy dandy Nook Book!

Delusional

I've always wondered what the Gorillaz actually looked like..not their cartoon counterparts.

It's funny, on my birthday, laying here in bed with a 103 fever and unable to eat anything, my delusional thinking goes to "hey, what random fact can I discover today that I did not know before??"

It's like a whole new perspective on this band exists. I do not despise listening to them anymore.  It makes them a creditable source of music for when I am bored now.  Also, this song is a big step from their old music of randomness that just annoys the snap out of someone.

Poetry...

I wish I were a flower
Growing wild and free;
I wish I had the power
To be whatever I want to be;
To feel like in this hour
That I'm not hyped on green tea;
This book leaving me sour
Oh, you bastard psychology;
I smell... Indeed I need to shower
But not before I actually study;

Oh how productive I can be
When my mind is not on psychology;
I dream, I think, I am
I could even cook a rack of lamb;
I could even bake
My favorite cake;
Of Chocolate Chip
Inside A Bacon Strip?
Oh Strep Throat
How You Love to Gloat;
I Get You Twice A Year
Oh How You Make Me Sneer;

Hiding Place

Where's the place you go to hide?

Gym... 

    Mall... 

      Nook...

        Cranny...
          In a Box...
            Under a tree...
               In a bush...
                 Behind a door...
                    In the library stacks...

                       Maybe in a Closet...

                     Or Perhaps The Place No One Expects, Where You Blend In To Your Environment So Perfectly, It's Like You're Lost Within Your Own World... 

 The Place You Go when You're:

Hurt,

Confused,

Tired, or just

Happy because it's the one place you know you are Safe.

Point of View

Jail Cell Window outlooking into a cloudy haze of a day.

Perhaps a ladder, flat on a stone sidewalk.

Maybe the simplest, shortest game of hopscotch ever played.

An ambulance stretcher with stains and scars of the day.

Or maybe just a doodle one does when you feel like you've got nothing left except for the pencil in your hand ..

Exercise

-ing my right to do whatever I please.

-ing in a the gym is really mundane but for some reason, I just refused to leave today.  I literally ran 3 mi and walked 10 because I had so much on my mind.

-ing the right as a best friend to call you out on your bullshit and telling you yes....you really did hurt my feelings...how are we going to fix this?

-ing the right to turn off my phone and live a day without technology tomorrow (I might die..We'll see Wednesday)

-ing the right as a single girl to go on dates and meet new people just because I can

-ing my artistic side by starting my journal again and drawing at the wee hours of the morning when a huge thunderstorm sounds like it's about to unleash the wrath of God on my poor little townhouse.

-ing the fact that I do not have any exams this week and I'm being productive by starting/finishing projects that are due in the next few days/week

-ing the fact that even though it's by birthday this weekend, I am not going to have/go to a party.  I am visiting my family in New Mexico because tradition is so much better than a random college experience

-ing my brain right now and found a new way to look a word and all of the meanings it can have. Idea of the day: what if more people exercised their brain? The world could actually be a better place if people weren't so darn selfish and thought about the people they're affecting.

Kids Today....

Is it Just me Or are teenagers today becoming increasingly disconnected from the rest of the world? When I was little I thought Teddy and Abe were the coolest guys in history, and today, people don't even have real first names and spell everything without syllables, proper grammer, and they use numbers and add "z"'s to every word. How do they expect future generations to learn anything if today we are stunting knowledge and learning from pure laziness?

My Hope In Humanity lies within the little kid I babysit.  This 7yr old is on the chess team and is reading the Harry Potter series in the 1st grade!!!

P.s. Does anyone find it ironic that despite this absolutely inspiring statement about the progression of culture (or lack thereof), that it still says "Historically Hardcore" at the bottom of the picture.  Really People?  I'm not going to use my typical response of "Grow Up" because over the past few days I learned that I really do not want to (another story for another time).  Instead my new phrase will be "You're wasting a Perfectly Good Brain".

Oh Isn't that So True?! People don't actually need to "grow up" or be "more mature", you just need to locate your brain, and actually "Use It" because if you think about it, your "mind" isn't an actual object someone can locate. Instead, it's this metaphorical battery that fuels your physical body to react to it's current reality.